Personal details are not something I feel at ease opening up about. As you all know dear friends, my priory is to always post about the rescue.
But … and I don’t know what words to use anymore …. things are worse than ever.
The never ending daily pressure of keeping the animals fed and the bills paid were just too much and I ended up in A&E last night. I should explain that I have a phobia of hospitals and I would do anything not to go near one …..
I rarely talk about my own problems and I hate complaining.
But right now I feel like I can’t cope anymore. I’m at my wits’ end if that’s the right expression….
We both feel like we are drowning.
I'm exhausted and run down. I look so much older than my real age.
I was released from hospital today after being diagnosed with severe panic attacks, huge anxiety and horrendous migraines due to non stop stress and worries.
I have always kept our own problems to ourselves. We are not asking for pity. We took on this huge responsibility of saving animals and caring for them and we can’t thank you enough for helping us do that.
But this time I physically am not able to pull through like other times before…..
I am utterly drained both physically and mentally and I’m sick in bed with no hope for a solution in sight.
I am so scared he will collapse under the burden any moment now ….
We have dedicated our lives to the rescue and all the poor, poor animals. Sadly right now we feel like everything is in vain.
The rescue is on the brink of collapse, it’s only a few people that are still helping with donations; the financial burden is too much for us. We both take sleeping pills and still stay awake at night worrying how we’ll pull through. How we’ll be able to provide for these beautiful animals that only have us and our supporters.
We should be prepared for winter by now but we had no means at all. All the donations received lately and the money from fundraisers have been used to cover daily needs and emergencies but the bigger debts and expenses remain and are increasing day by day…..
All the money raised - and we thank you from the bottom of our hearts for your kind donations - has barely been enough to pay for the food for all our animals, the smaller vet bills, and fuel for the van; the large vet bills are still owed.
Our terrifying reality right now:
- We are not prepared for winter 🥶 Not at all.
- the vet debts are HUGE ( over 17.000€)
- the vans need winter tyres and insurance or we can’t drive them anymore.
- the shelter needs urgent work before snow comes but we have no money for the materials or the labour.
- the dogs that are due to travel to the UK in November can only travel if we raise the funds. ( £3630 missing)…
Every month the rescue has huge costs.
Wages to the helpers, electricity bills, water bills, garbage bills, cleaning products.
Then we have the dogs in the shelter that have never been adopted and that most likely won’t ever get adopted.
They are either old, either scared, we rescued them damaged, they have health issues, they need treatments, our shelter is their home.
But unfortunately their home is struggling and can’t pay for what they need anymore…
During winter we have so many more needs.
How to pay for everything?
How to pay for food for the farm animals when we can’t even pay the vet bills?
We have been trying to find a sanctuary for our rescued farm animals but without succes.
Now that winter is here there is no green grass left and we literally don’t have what to give to our farm animals to eat.
We just don’t have money to pay for their food.
We have doghouses that need to be repaired or replaced.
Impossible target.
Every single day is literally a burden.
Suppliers don’t wait, and if they wait at some point they still want to be paid.
How are we supposed to pay them ?
Our two vans need petrol each 3 days. It costs 100€ for both vans each 3 days.
We are literally looking at the vans as their tanks are empty.
Donations have dropped drastically.
Less and less people are helping.
We have reduced the number of new rescues coming in.
At the rescue the dogs and the cats need to have flea & worming treatment each 3 months.
It’s the worse nightmare ever.
It’s incredibly costly and we never manage to pay for that.
We kept doing so many things “ on debt” that we are now in a dead point.
Our hearts are getting broken every single day.
This time, all the stress accumulated lately has literally taken our health.
Because like I said, I ended up to hospital last night.
He’s not far away either…
We are collapsing.
Please, I am begging you dear friends to give us a helping hand.
I don’t even have the strength to beg anymore.
The migraines are killing me, the stress has taken all my health and energy.
Please don’t let us “ die”.
We need you !! We have thousands of followers here.
❤️❤️ Together we have achieved amazing things along the years, together we made miracles happen in the past…
If just half of you all would help with the price of one coffee ☕️ the rescue could survive.
The animals have nobody else apart us and you…
We dedicate our lives to them,
Christmas, New Year’s, birthdays, day or night, sun or rain or snow. We are always here for them.
But we aren’t enough….
We need your help more than ever.
We are at breaking point right now.
If you can’t donate, please share this post 🔔 Your share might be the reason the rescue gets help …
And we so need it…